Something has got to give

 



Our weaknesses should never be the reason we back down

   On one Sunday I was walking to church with my son in my arms. The walk took plus minus 25 minutes and along the way I was praying to God for a lift, it was hot and my baby was heavy, I was tired!

 Answering my prayers, God sent some one to give us a lift and guess what? I didn't take it! I was like, no thanks. Now this got me thinking, how many times we ask God for things but when He actually gives them to us, we are like no thanks.


We fear taking on new paths, we get comfortable with our current situations, we feel we not ready all of a sudden or we just not willing to put in some effort or make certain sacrifices. It's pretty sad huh? And quiet stupid if you look at it in the way of my Sunday story. But does this label us as people who don't know what they want? Because some look at us like that when we actually want to get to the other side but are afraid to cross the bridge or jump! Sweety how else are you gonna get there?

Truth is everything in this life has a principle, and only those principles get you there, just like how only Jesus is the way to the father "I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the father except trough me" - John 14:6 So next time we ask for something, make sure you prepared to do what it takes to get it. Love and passion always help, because when you really have a passion for something and love it whole heartedly then you will break through the toughest wall, just to get it.

Jesus died on the cross to pursue us, remember? Well with that being said.

Take care

Daddy please come home

Today it's my dad's birthday and i don't know where he is. He left home a month ago and left all his stuff behind, even his cellphone. I just hope he has an amazing day and that where ever he is, he knows that we love him very much. I miss it when he laughs, and share jokes with me, I miss it when he plays with my son, how he always understands and his warm huggs. I'm scared he might never come back and that i might end up being angry at him for leaving us like that, i think it was pretty selfish. Or I wonder what if we wronged him? Or what if there is some one else? What if he is not doing this of his own accord? How can I help him? Maybe he is sick or he just doesn't love us anymore, or perhaps the devil is using this to destroy our family. Buut, I pass it all to God because He knows whats going on and He is on our side, fighting for us. and because my God loves us, this too shall pass and I know He will use it for the better because we love him. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY, YOUR THE BEST!!!

March 10

Today i made an innocent mistake, yet my head was almost bitten off at the office! i was so hurt, so angry and just couldn't understand why no one understood that it could of happened to just anyone. It reminfds me of last night, my mom shouted at me so bad that i was so sure her life would be better off without me. It's amazing how one can make you feel so small, so unworthy, so stupid or something you just know your not! But in this i simply realised that when we are angry, we say pretty nasty things and hardly care about other people's feelings, after all why should others be happy if we are not? After we cool off, we then sort of wish we didn't say or do what we did. The bible teaches us to be slow to anger, quick to listen but with us it's just the other way around. Now the best way we learn things is when we encounter them, we get a feel of how a certain dish we cook for others actually tastes, and then it's up to us to change or not. Or atleast that's how it happens to me, i mean i have learnt how it feels to treat others a certain way through people treatig me the same way. So can we say that how others treat us affects the way we treat others? Or is it how we treat others that determines how they treat us? Either way, we can never be responsible for other poeples ways be it in action or speach but we are responsible for ours. Most things are easier said then done, that's if they can be done at all. But as much as i hate to admit, it's true that we are in control of our lifes, yes we dont know what tommorow holds, let alone the next minute but we can control ourselves, our emotions and how we react to certain things. Maybe am just writting but everything we do affects those around us and it's the little things that hurt or effect us the most. Next time before you react in anger, think, listen and think again. Words last a life time and once said can never be taken back, and people never forget how you made them feel.



Hillary Clinton

“Take criticism seriously, but not personally. If there is truth or merit in the criticism, try to learn from it. Otherwise, let it roll right off you.”



Love Yourself

 Yes the past is no ones friend because the bad memories ruin out present and the good ones contantly take us back and leave us with questions such as WHAT IF? Either way, the past is what we wish could just fade away but that's no reason for us to hate the experiences it brought.
The past is part of who we are, the experiences are the blocks that where used to build our character and as much as we don't like how they made us feel, they are the very reason we are who we are.

I hated my past experiences, each time I thought about them , they stole a little bit of joy at a time. I prayed for them to go away but they didn't, they couldn't, they were just not meant to be forgotten! What did I do?
Yip! I made peace with them and to do that I had to forgive, forgive myself and the bad choices, as well as those who hurt me. It took time hey, but I did it!

I then realised that this person I have become is a result of those experiences, they humbled me and gave me a positive attitude. They made me brave and showed me my true strength, they showed me my weakness and who I can rely on. I learnt so many lessons that i can teach the world for a life time. I now embrace those experiences because I now know they are a part of who I am, and if I hate them then I hate a part of me, and if I hate a part of me, who will love me fully? Who will love all of me?

Andrea said it and I totally agree! In order to love who you are, you cannot hate the experiences that shaped you.