March 10

Today i made an innocent mistake, yet my head was almost bitten off at the office! i was so hurt, so angry and just couldn't understand why no one understood that it could of happened to just anyone. It reminfds me of last night, my mom shouted at me so bad that i was so sure her life would be better off without me. It's amazing how one can make you feel so small, so unworthy, so stupid or something you just know your not! But in this i simply realised that when we are angry, we say pretty nasty things and hardly care about other people's feelings, after all why should others be happy if we are not? After we cool off, we then sort of wish we didn't say or do what we did. The bible teaches us to be slow to anger, quick to listen but with us it's just the other way around. Now the best way we learn things is when we encounter them, we get a feel of how a certain dish we cook for others actually tastes, and then it's up to us to change or not. Or atleast that's how it happens to me, i mean i have learnt how it feels to treat others a certain way through people treatig me the same way. So can we say that how others treat us affects the way we treat others? Or is it how we treat others that determines how they treat us? Either way, we can never be responsible for other poeples ways be it in action or speach but we are responsible for ours. Most things are easier said then done, that's if they can be done at all. But as much as i hate to admit, it's true that we are in control of our lifes, yes we dont know what tommorow holds, let alone the next minute but we can control ourselves, our emotions and how we react to certain things. Maybe am just writting but everything we do affects those around us and it's the little things that hurt or effect us the most. Next time before you react in anger, think, listen and think again. Words last a life time and once said can never be taken back, and people never forget how you made them feel.